Baby are you down, down, down, down, down.

I feel down. I wasn't a minute ago. Its normal.

So I've noticed that I like being with a lot of people in person. I mean, being with a few people is all good for me too but I don't mind crowds.

I've always known that I don't like being in crowded rooms on Audition either where all the watch places are filled and players... I don't know :x It's not just me though. Maybe its cause I'm overwhelmed by all the different font colors .. bright green from famchat, red sometimes from Nami, blue whispers, and the assortment of regular chat colors.

I just realized its the same in vent. I just left this vent because it had like... 5+ and I dunno :x I feel odd just .. joining in and being like OH HEY HI OKAY.

I don't know. I actually don't even know what to feel right now.

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On a different matter, HAPPY NEW YEARS. I'm not looking forward to this year only because ... well ... new years > school > birthday > finals. Fuck. I need to get back on this schoolwork track cause I've been long off, gotdayum.

I also miss Kevin bbfl.

I just made a video for Derick because I said I would while he's in the Phillipines.

I miss people at school too, one bright side of returning.

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So I recently met this guy... who lives in Vegas and I don't know why he makes me feel.. different.

I actually never got back to Justin about how he has feelings for me again. Yeah, my ex from 2 years ago has feelings for me again. :x

Back to the guy. I'll call him "C" for now. So ... we've been talking on vent everyday for the past week or something and uhh.. We just exchanged numbers yesterday. I wouldn't say I like him cause I can't confirm that yet but .. Its weird. He makes me feel happy lol. I really like his voice as well. We're the same age, play the same games, he's really chill.

I webcammed with him the third time we talked or something and he's like OMGSOCUTELKJFSF. And I'm like OKAY NOW YOU WAVE AT ME? I feel like he's fcking with me because he keeps giving me excuses about how he can't wave and shit and ... I don't know. I don't get why my feelings are responding so passionately toward him.

Jackie, what the fuck? Right?

I GOT A NORTHFACE JACKET , IT IS WARM AND NICE HOORAY.

Okay.

I don't know. Lol. I'm talking to him right now and I'm just like :x .. I watch what I say around him or like... I think I hesitate before actually saying whatever. He makes me laugh a lot too, but that doesn't mean much.

I feel like he acts the way he does with all the girls he talks to.. like yesterday he's like.. CAN I TRANSFORM YA ?

Jackie: Say what. Transform me into what ;o

C: My girlfriend

Jackie: LOLWUT?

C: My girlfriend.

He also was like marry me jackie and I'm like.. LOL WTF?

Wtf am I supposed to say.. YEAHHH? Play with him too or maybe he's just doing this out of friendliness, I don't know. LOL WTF JACKIE.

Yeah I don't know.

Edit:

LOL now he's mocking me.

Fuck no, Jackie will not get played. Fuck this LOL